Try Again???

"Therefore, having this ministry by the mercy of God, we do not lose heart." 

2 Corinthians 4:1

Well, four years ago I found out about this cool thing called the "Disney Mom's Panel" sponsored by the Walt Disney World Corporation.  People who not only love Disney but also assist others in planning their special trips to Disney World are encouraged to apply for this online panel that gives others advice.  They are always looking for unique perspectives and since I adore Disney and have had to plan very special trips as a caregiver, I thought it was a no brainer.  Except for the fact that for the past three years I have researched, read, researched, read and prepared knowing I would no doubt make it  AND they would LOOOOVE to have me on their team.  Sounded right to me.

Well... that hasn't been the case.  I have never made it and my family wasn't very happy when I commented that I was applying again next week.  When I asked why, already knowing, they said it was because I was sad for several days when I didn't make it.  They hate seeing me disappointed.  I totally love that about them BUT, in life we can't stop trying.  At least I can't!  

So, next week I will apply again knowing that not only would I love to be a part of something "Disney" but would also love to share my God given passion and calling to help caregivers.  And why not combine two of my loves together?  Again for the fourth year in a row, if I don't make it I will know that is isn't part of God's plan for me right now.  No matter how awesome something appears I have learned that if God doesn't want it for me, there is a reason and I have to accept that.  At the same time, I will continue to try things knowing that when they do work it is His plan and His timing!  Who knows?